“ What makes you happy B??”,, asked B.

One of my besties asked me simply “ what makes Bunga happy?? Woow… seems like an easy question but immediately I did think twice..and Ooowwh,,, it’s hard to give the answer of this simple question.. because I should sink in through the bottom of my heart, listening the deepest reflection of my soul until I could figure it out, what does actually make me happy. It is not that easy, though..


I tried to open all the pages of daily privacy of mine and then back and forth the photo albums of mine, and then made some notes about what kind of agenda, activities and all of the things which already success to put a line of smile in my face. Honestly.. there were so many things that could make me happy

there were thousand or even millions thing that can made my day wonderful and playful. But whatever it is.. I should make a statement what can makes me happy

Well let me try to think and made the best statement by analyzing all of layers of mine. I begin with the first layer of my life, my family. I’m a girl and since I was just a little girl I already became a daddy’ s sweet heart. Moreover this daddy’s little angel is surrounded by three awesome brothers and one cute little sister who years younger than me.

I was the last in series of my siblings for a long time and all of the great attentions has always been going to me and it happens until my number of age turn into 23. It makes me feel like a lady, super lady who are always surrounded by the greatest loves of life. I’m happy, I’m crazy over my family and ain’t no such thing as too much If I said that their love is such an addictive love


(1st layer!!!)


Next is about the second layers of my life. Friendship, besties and whatever it said,, is purely, essential and naturally consist of the true love of friendship. Maybe I don’t have a lot of friends who made me difficult to find them in a thousand contacts list. But I ‘m really sure that they are in highest quality. They are such a gift from my beloved god who can always cheers me up. They always know how to bring back the rainbow to my heart after it hit by a heavy and thunder rain which hurt me . They also know how to put me back in the best point after I fell down and didn’t even know how to stand up in my own feet. So that’s why I always miss them when they’re not around me,, whenever, wherever I am..



(2nd layer)

Third layer consist of many kind of friends. Childhood friends, neigbours, high school fellas, colleagues, chatting friends, pals and whatever. There’s an old quote: some people come and go in our life, but not everybody would leave a footprint in our heart.

But according to me,, Even they’re real or unreal.. even they’re good or bad and even they’re exist or not anymore ,there’s always something that they can offer me. Maybe not just that time but after, they always left something and I like to call their invisible heritage as an irreplaceable memory. I do proud of them who are now around me or who used to stay in this kind of layer. Big thanks for all of you,,. Nearby, far away, burn in sadness or happiness, forever or just temporary , u made me always falling in love to make new friendship.



(3rd layer)

Last but not least is the last layer of my life,, but not least..Why?? because this kind of layer is very invisible.. Why does it appear invisible?? Because…when the” It Feeling “doesn’t exist for several reasons… this layer doesn’t also exist… But.. when It appears.. oh gosh, oh gosh, oh gosh… this layer has a super natural power which can make the other layers of your life perfect.. this layer called Love layers but the love it has, has chemical particles completely. One of the Greece Goddes, Aphrodite said that this kind of layer consist of Love in accordance with lust. So that is why.. this layer is great because it has a best combination. And I cant even explain for more and the only thin I know Is that I always happy and extremely and criminally happy when this invisible layer appear as visible to my life. To love and to be loved are the most beautiful feeling I ever knew,, and I always enjoy that kind of things..


(suppppperb layer)

So,,, after saw my little personal research inside my heart,, I finally can made a conclusion of all this confusion things.. I proudly say that I’m just an ordinary girl who always love to love and to be loved. So that;s why.. after all that I’ve been through in my life.. I never loath to apologize even if I didn’t made that mistakes..or I wouldn’t even doubt to change my attitude if it agitate anyone. I do not love frown but smile, I do not love war but peace, I do not love hate but loves.

So.. now.. you know right the key of my happiness is love..whoever, wherever, whenever, and whatever..just give me loves because I simply love loves.. ;)

( 8 dec 2009)